Proven to
self, unproven to others
Every waking day, for over two years you have in
gratitude and newness of life proved to yourself that there is life, hope and
expectation beyond what at one time looked like a diagnosis that was terminal.
However, as strength and recovery seemed to take
greater hold so has been the difficulty of proving to others that one is a
prospect, one is able and one can do.
Each time, each encounter has acknowledged, praised
and commended but it was always short of perfect, never the ideal or just not
the right fit.
When will it
end?
It is as if what one has personally left behind is
constantly dogging your progress with the results sapping confidence, draining
resolve and extricating bit by bit everything one has built up for decades.
You wonder how much longer can you continue to believe
yourself if not one else will dare to believe or reach out to you when you are
no more in that position of great strength and opportunity that once was part
of the ideal expression of your personality.
Need more than
talk
Yet, you are told to be encouraged in the face of
privation, to be strong in the midst of disgrace, to be hopeful as everything
is carted away that even it is a struggle to hold on to one’s dignity.
You then have to decide as you review the sum total of
your existence, will you allow the concept of having failed to overwhelm you or
that of having tried to egg you on to new heights? A man by himself can only
find so much inner strength before he is exhausted.
There comes a time when all you have is really those
who can give succour, respite and time for recuperation and recovery – do you
have a friend to fill that space?
All you need is a chance to show that you are living
and have a life worth living.
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