In the mind of me
There are things I
need to process that I have had some difficulty putting into some sort of
perspective of possibility and continuity, like a foreboding that seeks to
paralyse if I do not find the means to escape the thoughts that wander into my
consciousness unwelcome, yet demanding of attention.
I have come into a
happy phase, in fact, I don’t what it to just be a phase, but a fulfilment of a
lifelong desire that many take for granted. A companionship that is growing out
of the heart, the meeting of someone that has all the characteristics I never
dared dreamt could be one with whom there could be a story of a life lived
together.
Willing beyond the dark
It is like I cannot
believe I am deserving of love, that happiness should just be fleeting moments
of events and social interaction with nothing beyond it. I am allowed good
things to happen, but not good people to endure, especially when that person
has come into my life.
I have a battle on my
hands, I need to will myself beyond the dark clouds that loom into the
brilliance of the sunshine that brings warmth. The burdens of failed
relationships want to gain seize a platform in the future that I am planning
without them having any hold.
For blessing and more
My story is filled
with amazing twists and turns, everything that appears to be by chance has a backstory that can go back to the day I was born. I am not here by chance, I
have not lived by chance, I have survived by chance, rather, I have been
blessed and fortunate, caught up in the rapture and wonder of love.
If there is any doubt
in my mind, if there is any heaviness of heart that makes me drift, I have to
find an anchor to hold on to, the anchor of love, purposeful love given to me
by a universe of things I could never have ordained, yet that I have been given
the privilege to participate in. I am a man of possibility; I will live to
fulfil the dreams that have made me smile from within deep sleep.
Let the dawn rise
upon the thought,
That I not be overwrought,
If things were not as they ought,
Only with love can I can be taught.
That I not be overwrought,
If things were not as they ought,
Only with love can I can be taught.
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