The recesses of solitude
The comfort the security of my home
provides could easily preclude me from essential socialising with other people and
this has been exacerbated from the time of the pandemic when the need to be in
an office was first restricted by lockdown and unviable by distance.
The wealth of solitude cultivated from
hermit tendencies that have developed over decades probably in reaction to
living in rather closely-knit settings became a need for one’s private space
and the protection of that apparent luxury of estate.
The exuberance of companionship
It would seem the only time that was
shelved was with Brian, my partner because we have striven to create a proper
home environment for ourselves with a sense of autonomy and independence that
we enjoy. Even though there are times I want to escape from it to have time to myself,
it is a learning process.
If anything, I am very comfortable
with our domestic arrangements, and it is one I quite so long for as it
presents and satisfies that critical need for companionship with the
understanding of each other and intimacy that does not exist in any other
relationship.
However, getting out of my home to
interact with a team of volunteers once a week seems to be quite beneficial too.
For indirectly, I have begun to feel a sense of realignment of priorities and
an appreciation of the kind of person I am. You realise that you need to be
amongst people to use some life skills that never find an airing if you are
sequestered in your home or using basic technology.
Working with all I have
Yet, Brian and I have availed
ourselves quite fully of whatever means we have to maintain daily and constant
communication with the support system it entails that is somewhat unavailable
elsewhere. There are times I do feel alone and isolated, and maybe I do determinedly isolate myself too, what I am at least grateful for is there are many, friends,
relations, and strangers alike who endeavour to keep in touch with me.
Beyond that, help from unexpected
sources, far and near would keenly suggest one is not alone by any stretch of
the imagination. You work with what you have and work with what you get for in
all that makes up the experience with life, the spirit of encouragement
imparted by mother, partner, and friend says there is a better story being
written, even now.
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